I've discovered that the majority of my frustration on my days off stems from the feeling of unproductivity (new word) and the feeling that I'm not doing anything that matters. I constantly struggle with discontentment, rushing from one minute to the next hoping that life will get more exciting. The whisper of my precious Jesus continues to find its way into my heart amidst the chaos: "Be still." Finally, after years of fighting stillness for fear of becoming lazy, I have chosen to explore and accept the rest and peace of the Lord. He is teaching me to be patient and to not look to the next minute but to instead find joy in simply living in the moment. My identity and worth does not come from how much I accomplish in a day or how many things are on my calendar. My identity is found in Him, an identity only fully developed when I truly seek Him with all of my being. Matthew 6:33 has always been one of my favorite verses: "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." All of the answers to all of the questions in life may be found by simply seeking the One who has the answers. So I choose to seek Him, to be still, and to find joy in the simplicity of being His treasure.
Tonight is the Greek festival in downtown Tulsa. I'm so excited! I went with my parents last year and it was one of the highlights of my fall. I'm very much looking forward to the food! Yum, yum, yum! We're going with some friends who live downtown, so we'll park at their apartment and walk to the Greek Orthodox church where the festival is held. We're going in time for the dancing this year, which should be an interesting adventure. The thought of Mom and Dad Greek dancing (whatever that looks like) just makes me smile. I can't wait!